Monday, November 21, 2011

For those of you that truly know me, you are already aware of the fact that I am not much of a writer. Trying my best to keep this short and sweet, I’d like to share what’s been going on in my life for a while now.

*inhale*

Before I begin, please know and allow me to start by saying that I know exactly how wonderfully blessed I am. I have everything I could ever ask for… a family who I love dearly and never fails to support my every move. My amazing husband of 19 years treats me just like the queen of everything and has been known to move mountains just to please me. He is my rock and I have no idea where I would be today without him. My children, of course, truly are more than I could ever ask for; they are my heart and soul, they are my everything. They deserve a medal, too for putting up with psycho mom. My parents live right up the street from us and we have such a close-knit relationship. They are so supportive and loving to us all, we are very lucky to be so close, it’s wonderful to be so involved with the family, I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world! My brother really isn’t so far away… we can go for long periods of time without being in touch yet always seem to pick up right where we left off. He “gets” me (what an awesome feeling) and accepts me for the sister I am. How lucky am I? My life is extremely blessed and has all that I could ever need or want. There are really no words to express how I feel about my family. Words are never enough to make anyone understand how much each and every one of them means to me. Thank you all so much for being the reason… You know how that goes… I am a mother, a wife, a daughter and a sister. I am also a friend. Though, over the last few weeks I seem to have fallen short in all categories.

With that being said, recently, for the first time in my life… I lost my grip. I forgot how to smile. I have no energy to muster a smile. Not to say that I haven’t always been moody and temperamental, but this time it’s been definitely and completely different. I have succumbed to unexplained extreme depression and anxiety. I have no idea how this happened, nor do I have an explanation. I have a chemical imbalance. I feel like I’m having a heart attack on a daily basis. (God-forbid) For as long as I can remember, my personality has always been the cheerful, lovey-dovey, outgoing…you know, the “no backbone” type. I’ve rarely uttered the word “no” to anyone outside of my immediate household and this at times, has made a mad-woman. Yes, I know all to well that you can relate… we all find ourselves in this situation at one time or another. To say the least, just maybe my mind has just decided to finally throw my hands in the air and give up? I really don’t know how this happened. (I keep looking for a legitimate reason, yet I now know the triggers) Something that I can confidently say is that this change of life is and has been for way too long, kicking my ass. I am 41 years young and absolutely menopausal. (TMI, I know, but I really don’t care anymore) It has hormonally, been an emotional roller coaster and I am trying desperately to repair a broken spirit. Again, anyone that knows me won’t be surprised when I say that my creativity has spiraled downward. This is nothing new… it’s been spoken of countless times among friends and loved ones in the last couple of years. When I lost that creative feeling, I guess I lost a pretty good sized chunk of my soul. I have been lost without it. Like an itch that you just can’t scratch. Patiently waiting for my muse to return… spending many hours in my art studio just looking around for something to do- to no avail. I am and have always been very (duh!) high energy and have become very high maintenance. Sitting idle and stagnant has NEVER agreed with me. Maybe this has something to do with my mental collapse? Who knows? For some reason, in writing, it seems as though the loss of creativity adds an enormous key element to all of this. Trust me, it does take its toll but I am also not naïve. Blame cannot entirely be cast upon my loss of creativity; it’s just an easy scapegoat. There are of course, a number of other circumstances that have added to my stress level over the last few years. Those, I’m just not willing to chatter out loud to the world about.

I want so badly to be myself again, only stronger and more able to cope with harbored and suppressed emotions. I miss my family. I miss my friends; I miss my ability to smile. I want to visit with you all and small talk about nothing. I’m just not able or ready to interact and pretend like I feel fine right now. Trust in knowing that things will be great again, I just need a bit more time. This phase in my life though is different. I can’t do it alone. I’ve tried. Unlike before, I’m not able pick myself up, dust off and move forward. Lately, after falling, it’s been progressively getting harder and harder to pick myself up again. One of my weaknesses: bottling emotion until I literally burst. I have been forced to seek medical attention for this and the good news is, there is help for me. I believe that I now have the tools to cope and am on the road to recovery. Happiness will return, hopefully sooner than later... this is certainly a struggle for someone who has always enjoyed working in the hospitality industry. I am here to please…

All this rambling and why do I feel like I could go on and on… need to say even more? What’s been going through my head? It’s a mental ailment with associated physical symptoms. (I still cannot believe that I have the balls to throw this out there for the world to judge.) This social butterfly has become infected now, with social anxiety. Go figure. I’ll never understand why, life as I know it is pretty damn good right now. I am blessed and fully aware that there are many unfortunate souls out there who have it much worse yet, have the strength of an army to carry on. I really don’t know how one does it under tragic or monumental circumstances. May our God bless all those with special intentions and needs. Thank you all so much for “listening”, I don’t expect you to understand, I just really needed to let go of this.

*exhale*

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

happy wednesday, lovelies!

checking in because it’s been a while!  we’ve been on the go around here with my daughter’s awesome tennis meets, work, commissions and life in general.  things are going great and the mojo is finally back in full swing!   I’ve been getting lost in my studio and it’s a fabulous feeling!  

I’ve actually been considering another giveaway sometime before the holidays,  I’d love to send goodies to your mailbox so keep those eyes peeled!  have a wonderful day!

hugs

 

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Monday, August 15, 2011

for a friend.

this was my end of the deal… “you know who you are!”

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she’ll see you tomorrow!  hehe

have a great evening, everyone!

cj

Friday, August 12, 2011

finally friday!

  excitement and anticipation is in the air around here.  certainly, i’ve got the best two kids in the whole wide world!   our son just recently started his new job, he’s been truly blessed with an opportunity working for a company with a very bright  future and today is our daughter’s first day of her junior year in high school .  she’ll be taking four college credit classes this year & hoping to juggle her part time job, as well.  it’s been busy, busy fine tuning the details… i am such a proud momma!   many blessings and  best wishes for luck as they tackle this new chapter in their lives , they’ll do just fine!  my children are truly my pride and joy… take a peek.  here’s my brendan!crazy cory & i '11 067

and here’s my bethany!

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I can’t believe how the time has flown by, just yesterday they were so tiny.  I love you both! 

wishing everyone a happy, relaxing and safe weekend~  I’ll close for now with a photo of a visitor that we had early this morning.  monkey had a  friend stop by to visit!  pretty darn cute, huh?

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later, gators!

christina

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I have a friend…

who’s having a birthday.  she is absolutely wonderful and makes each day better by just being...  thank you for all that you do for others!!!

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happy birthday, claudia!  ox

hugs!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

it's the weekend!

hey dolls!!!  i hope that everyone is staying cool out there in this scorching heat.  i believe that the temp. here is in the 100's today (we've been experiencing quite a heat streak) and here's to hoping that it won't stop many from enjoying our amelia earhart weekend festivities!  i'll be out and about walking the mall later! :)
been under the weather and missing in action for the last couple of weeks... i'm on my second round of antibiotics so a speedy turnaround is expected!  *fingers crossed* ;)
NEWSFLASH!  that creativity craving is creeping back into my life.  (say THAT ten times fast... creativity craving is creeping!)  LOL! the urge to get completely lost in bold, fantastic color, make a mess and express myself  from deep within.. yup.  i feel the need for speed... 
will fill you in again soon... wish me luck!!!
hugs,
cj

Friday, June 3, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRENDAN!!!!!!

happy 22nd to my amazing son, may he have the very best of birthdays today and 100 more to come!!!!  we love you so much!

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God bless you,

momma OXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Monday, May 16, 2011

it’s a gorgeous sunny monday!

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howdy!!   just popping in for a quickie, how was everyone’s weekend?  I tackled some more spring cleaning around the house, concentrating on the porches.  it felt so good to freshen and edit the outdoor areas, and right before trash day!   *finally* growing some grass in the bare spots too, the yard is coming along nicely! 

trying to stay busy over here with various creative projects and still have much going on in the week ahead.    I hope to catch up with you all again in the next few days and am excited to fill you in on what’s been going on!

hugs ~~

thank goodness the sun is shining, that’s what makes me tick! 

it’s a beautiful day in this neighborhood!

christina

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

so. this is about as good as it’s going to get… at least for the time being!

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frustrated and tired, the blog looks a tad bit better…  I’ll quit for now.  say hello to my crabby little friend. 

are you all having a wonderful week?   hang in there, it’s almost the weekend!

i.want. to. create.

hugs ox

Monday, April 25, 2011

whoa!! where does the time go?? i’ve been MIA again!

 

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happy day to all of my family and friends and I certainly hope that you had a blessed easter sunday!!  we spent the day with family and i couldn’t have asked for anything more~ it was a beautiful day here!! 

what have I been up to?  I’ve been blessed with many things to do…my plate has been pretty full lately.   (welp,  at least I’m trying to stay outta trouble, right?  hehe)  just trying to keep busy~ you know what it’s like, the list goes on… family, holidays, starting up and preparing for first monday workshops at cottage of the seasons again,  getting involved more in our community with a handful of  side projects, working…

geez, and I don’t know what is going on with this blog o’ mine?!?   twice now I have spent over an hour trying to fix my blog background… to no avail.  one of these days it’ll look the way that I want it to!  in the meantime, bear with me, please.  I’ll just try to keep my uploaded pics interesting!  :)

sending sweet love and wishing you all a wonderful week~ I’ll check in again soon!

hugs,

christina

Monday, March 7, 2011

and the sweet winner is…

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YAY!!!!  congrats to my lucky girl, holly!!!! 

everyone ended up having their name on a ticket,  plopped into one of my cutie vintage bowls.   holly’s name was chosen and is hereby proclaimed  **the winner**!!!!!  (hand picked by that super fabulous daughter o’ mine!!  thank you, beth!)   I’ll get in touch with you and get this into the mail for you asap!   congrats sweet friend and oh yeah, holly~  you rock!!!  make sure to stop by holly’s blog ~~ Hollyrocks ~~ you’ll just love what you see! 

thank you all for being a part of this, I’ll try to do this more often!

hugs,

christina ox

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

the giveaway~

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the sun is bright,  this makes for a better photo.

misha and lorraine, you are entered, thank you so much!  Smile

hugs to all!

christina

Sunday, February 27, 2011

just a little giveaway… because you are all so sweet!

overdue I know. 

sorry for the delay, but here we go!

all together now… here’s the loot!

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my photos aren’t the best this time, so please bear with me.  the sun decided not to shine today, so my pictures look just as gloomy.

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first off, I’ll be offering 4 " little blank books”.  these are small hand painted and doodled, accordion style books to jot tiny notes/affirmations.  perfectly and conveniently packed in a well-used child’s watercolor paints case.

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teensy tiny sweet candies in a very teensy tiny frame…

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a repurposed decorative tray with a “happy'” cake… 

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oh, and I couldn’t forget a “sweet shoppe” silly necklace…

who knows?  the winner might even get an extra special something surprise.  hmmm, maybe personalized?  yes.  that sounds like a really good idea!

it’s all so easy peasy.  all that you have to do is simply leave a comment on this post and I will draw a random winner on monday, march 7th.  you know the drill~~ if you are a fellow blogger, I’ll know how to contact you.  if not, just make sure to leave me your email addy.

good luck and thank you all for being such dear, sweet friends!  I appreciate YOU so much!

oxox 

christina

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

going through some old photos for inspiration today…

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this is a personalized journal that was done for a customer around Christmas time.

ahem.. *cough, cough*… still need to make one for a friend’s daughter… I promise, I will get rolling on that one, girl!  Winking smile

ox

HEY! I just love my new thrifted window valances!

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our family room in the back of the house… let the sun shine in!

(as soon as it comes back out from behind the clouds!  Winking smile)

oxo

Monday, February 14, 2011

Thursday, February 10, 2011

completely frustrated over here.

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sooooooo…

  i’ve been working on the appearance of my blog.  for some reason, i CANNOT get a header photo to show up.  i’ve been trying to tweak  it for two days now and my patience has expired.  i still have hair left, so it’s time to stop.  

maybe i’ll come back to it, maybe I won’t.

ox

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

My eyes were the size of silver dollars!!

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I’ll bet now, you can understand why…

Thank you, sweet Claudia~  you know me so well!  OX

Christina

Sunday, January 23, 2011

just checking in!

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sending wishes to all in hopes that everyone has a terrific day today!!!

ox

Thursday, January 13, 2011

this is truly a laughing matter!

um, so yeah.

just a quick visual.

an explanation of how and why I accumulate so much “stuff”!!!  notice the price of my not-so-new popcorn containers.  still attached and waiting for a good washing… for FOUR of them, at that!  they’ll go great in my retro kitchen!

notice.

HAHAHA!!!

hugs and wishes for a sparkly day!

christina

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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

hello, my friends!

happy new year!  a commitment to blogging really should be one of my resolutions for the new year.  i have been terrible at keeping up with my poor, neglected  icandy….

hey,  here’s a quick peek at what I’ve been up to the last couple of days...  i’ll be finishing  these in the next few days so that they can be delivered downtown!  stop by cottage of the season’s soon and take a peek at the latest originals up for sale!

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thanks for looking! 

hugs to all and stay safe and warm out there!

christina

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